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  • Jun. 29th, 2007 at 9:00 PM

You Are Independent Sexy

You drive men crazy with your "playing hard to get act"
Except, it's really not an act at all.
You're a strong, sexy woman with her own life and interests.
And that makes men even more interested in you!

color red

  • Jun. 29th, 2007 at 8:52 PM

You Are Rouge Red

Of all the reds, you are the most energetic and vibrant.
You never need to recharge, and in fact, you often recharge others.
Gutsy and brave, you've never let your fears stop you from doing anything.
You figure that life is all about experiences, and you'll always take that leap of faith.

how evil am i

  • Jun. 22nd, 2007 at 4:15 PM

Are you a little Evil?

yep, you got a little sadistic mind

Your evil! of course watching people get hurt is fun. and what is the point of having a fire if you cant make it huge? gotta love fire.

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Jun. 22nd, 2007

  • 3:45 PM

What color is your soul painted?

Red

Your soul is painted the color red, which embodies the characteristics of love, strength, physical energy, sex, passion, courage, protection, excitement, speed, leadership, power, danger, and respect. Red is the color of the element Fire, and is associated with blood, life and death, birth, volcanoes, and intense emotions.

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Thank you erin for posting the quizz.

building friendships

  • Jun. 20th, 2007 at 9:43 PM

 "Life may lead me to new and different paths, meet new friends, learn new things ... but this will remain true - wherever life takes me, I'll always remember the path where I met you."

This is to all the new friendships that I am being able to build while on my journey. Ya'll make the stumbles feel like accomplishments, make me feel like emotions are a good thing to have and not something to be afraid of,  make family so much more than just blood and make me feel worthy.

Thank You to everyone
patience

  • Mood: content

Essay Task

  • Jun. 19th, 2007 at 3:39 PM


This was a task given to me by my Sir, Master Gowain. I thrive on accomplishing tasks so I was very proud to finish this one.

The Compleat Slave
Creating and Living an Erotic
Dominant/Submissive Lifestyle
By Jack Rinella


This is my understanding on the book The Compleat Slave. It is very well written and informative. The Compleat Slave is only 176 pages but in those pages is an immense amount of information.
Jack Rinella has been in the lifestyle for seventeen plus years, he is a switch(surprised me), has www.leatherviews.com and a major teacher of the leather lifestyle.

Jack Rinella describes a slave in three words- obedience, surrender and worship. I never realized just how much of a punch three words could have. So I did a lot of thinking concerning those three words.
Obedience-- Can I be completely obedient? I had to search deep for the answer to that question. I found that in all honesty, the answer would more than likely be no. I am 95% capable of complete obedience but then I have this little SAM side that would hinder me to be completely obedient. Does that take away from me being a slave? According to this book, the answer would be no. It is just who I am and my Master would know this and accept it.
Surrender– Can I completely surrender? That is a trick question.
I am totally capable of submitting and surrendering but with as many protective walls as I have it will take a Master of patience for complete surrender. I do believe that there will come a day when my walls will crumble and I am able to surrender all. Til that day I will work daily to take a brick out of my walls until they no longer exist.
Worship – Can I completely worship my Master? The answer to that question is yes. If I call Him Master then you can guarantee I can worship Him. 
A part of the book talks about realizing the need for submission and surrender the slave has. A slave has the need to serve and the need for feelings of being to be able to trust. Both of these traits allow the slave to “let go” of the steering wheel and let the Master drive. Without the trust the slave will not be able to “follow blindly” and causes them to fall short of their true potential.
A Master/slave relationship is based on support, empowerment and enjoyment. With these in place the relationship can be open, honest, loving, respectful and giving. A slave should be able to voice anything to her Master without fear of anger. In order for a Master to control His slave He must be able to control Himself first. This is a valuable part of the trust factor and without that trust there is no relationship.
From this book I learned the meaning of negotiating, leather images, communication, contracts , expectations, safety and training. I realized that I have such a long road ahead of me, but also realized that the walk is what I choose to make it.
I will always follow my heart.
  • Mood: accomplished

do i or don't i

  • Jun. 19th, 2007 at 12:53 AM

I have been having a hard time focusing lately. I am very new to the leather aspects of this lifestyle and sometimes fall on my face. I am so used to doing things my way, at my pace, in my time and in my control that I get lost. I am in service to Master Gowain and his house and have to remember that I voluntarily gave my control over to him. When I fail at doing this I feel as if I have disrespected him and everyone else in the Leather Community. Then I start doubting my worthiness and abilities to be in service.

I know and understand that I am a baby that must crawl before I walk but I get sooo frustrated that I am not a natural like some. Some or should I say most, just seem so natural in what they say, do or write that I become envious and feel inadequate. Then I find myself trying too hard to please so I can overcompensate for my short comings. Instead, I should just be myself and let things happen in their own time.

Just another babble of confusion from a babe!

Master Gowain and erin's girl
patience

p.s. and i wonder why they named me patience~smiles~
  • Mood: confused

a warm hello

  • Jun. 16th, 2007 at 12:50 AM

This is my first entry so please be patient.
My life has changed so much in the last couple of months. Sometimes it seems like everything is chaotic but then at times it seems so tranquil.
Since the weekend of SELF i have seen things in a whole different light. I feel like i have embarked on a journey that is finally my own. I look forward to making more new friends and strengthening the new ones.

patience

  • Mood: calm

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